How Hitting Rock Bottom Put Me On The Path To Financial Independence

How Hitting Rock Bottom Put Me On The Path To Financial Independence

So I have a pretty dramatic testimony, and I plan to be raw about it here in hopes of inspiring you. I've made a TON of financial mistakes and just recently discovered FI and before that Dave Ramsey. This has all occurred in my late 30's/early 40's. I'm a late bloomer.

Where I'm From

I grew up in middle-class America and somehow felt like everyone but me got the manual to life. I mostly figured things out but developed poor money habits, lived self-destructively and drank/drugged too much. Unfortunately, I was really good at making things look pretty on the outside, so I flew under the radar for far too long. In my mid 30's I hit a hard bottom.

Smoke and Mirrors

I grew up with a lot of unwarranted insecurities. I fell into the lie that I was unworthy unless I could be perfect. I found an escape from this self-imposed pressure in, you guessed it, alcohol and drugs. When I drank/drugged, I became all that I thought I wasn’t, funny, pretty, and secure.

I was a high functioning alcoholic/addict. Very few people knew I had a problem, at least not until the end. In my 20’s & 30’s, I did some successful stuff–finished undergrad and grad school maintained my evolving career and participated in some healthy relationships.

However, I also did some unsuccessful stuff–married & divorced, filed bankruptcy took out loans, bought what I couldn’t afford on credit, hated myself, and participated in abusive relationships. I ultimately became reliant on substances to wake, get through the day, and sleep. In the end, it was a sad existence and I often looked in the mirror and said, “I hate you.”

Break Down of the Smoke and Mirrors

In my darkest hour, I had a vision that involved three paths. On the first path, I saw myself rocking back in forth in an insane asylum. I knew this is where I was headed if things didn't change. The second path was death and I knew I could choose that instantly. Then on the third path, I could see a tiny glimmer of light. Like a match in an entirely dark room, I was drawn to it. I choose the third path and headed down a road to recovery and returned to faith.

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Inflection Point

Perfect love saved me and this was my pivotal moment where life became different, intentional, and purpose-filled.

I was ready to turn inside out and expose my inner wounds, insecurities, and secrets in pursuit of healing. I was ready to change. I came to that place Dominick Quartuccio talks about in his book, Design Your Future, when the pain to stay the same is greater than the pain to change. Pain can be a great motivator, but awakenings don't require a deep bottom. It is available to everyone at any time.

The great thing about people is that we are fluid and can change. The tough thing about people is that so many of us are resistant to it. Since my great awakening, I refuse to get too comfortable.

The Early Years

The early years of recovery were all about uncovering and digging up the roots of my issues. It involved a lot of forgiveness, apologies, prayer, being raw, learning new ways of thinking and habituating, and eventually getting the focus off of me. I'm healed most when I serve other people.

Baby Steps

The last four years my focus has been on cleaning up my financial wreckage.

By my first calculation, I had ~$108k in debt. When I put out the call for recommendations, I was introduced to the Dave Ramsey method. Ultimately, Dave was the catalyst to me overcoming some limiting beliefs and gaining control of my finances. I've been dogmatic about some of his advice, like getting on a zero-based budget and being ultra-frugal while in the debt snowball step, but have chosen to ignore other things like giving up my employer’s match on my retirement account until I am debt free, or waiting to have a fully funded emergency fund.

I just couldn’t drink all of his Kool-Aid and was mostly okay with that. I chose what worked for me.

Great reason to be sober – being an aunt to these two.

I had been feeling guilty about not being able to swallow all of Dave's advice when a colleague turned me onto ChooseFI. That's when I realized I had found my financial tribe. The first episode I listened to was The True Cost of Car Ownership. When Jonathan calculated the opportunity cost of having a car payment instead of investing it, I about drove off the road!  #Mindblown

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Seriously, why had I never heard this stuff before?! Compound interest?! Whaaat? Truth be told I had taken finance courses where we calculated compound interest, but I guess it never seemed real or applicable to my life. I think I was so used to living in survival mode that I just couldn't imagine having extra money to invest. Another lie I believed.

I have to wonder, why did I believe this wasn't for me?? This stuff is not just for the privileged or wealthy, it's for the disciplined. Once I figured that out, I realized I can do this thing. I'm going to achieve financial independence.

Surviving the Crash

When I got sober it was shortly after the crash of the housing market. At the time I owned a little house in a town that was just not bouncing back. Houses were foreclosing in my neighborhood and selling for like $10k! It was quickly becoming an unsafe place for a single woman, so when some major things in my house broke, I decided to pursue a short sale and moved out.

I moved into a ministry home (a form of house hacking by living in community with people of a common faith) and tried to do a short sale on my house. This didn't work out so well, and in the 11th hour, I was declined for the short sale and the house went into immediate foreclosure. In the end, the bank bought it back and agreed to waive the deficiency. I pretty much walked away unscathed except for my credit, which has completely been restored in a few short years of using credit cards within my budget and paying them off monthly.

At this point, with the mortgage gone and my snowball working, I had about $36k left in debt. Which I was focused on finishing as intensely as possible. I went through my budget and started cutting more items. It's amazing how many things we can think of as necessary that really are a luxury.

For instance, I stopped highlighting my hair. Although I had been having it done at a school for a fraction of the cost, I decided even that was not necessary. I love to ski and had a line item in my budget for that, but decided to put skiing on hold until this debt is gone. Delayed gratification can be a great motivator.

Then I realized I could do one more thing–move back home with my parents and quickly knock this debt out.

It has been humbling to move back in with my folks, and I had to get over myself to do it. I've had to tune out what people think, but the funny thing is many people actually consider what I am doing as heroic. So what I really had to tune out was my perception of what people think of me.

Besides being able to apply 70%+ of my monthly income to debt, I've found other blessings in it, like realizing the things that my aging parents need help with but would never ask. Overall it's been really good and I'm now three months out from paying it all off!

Turning On The Financial Freedom Clock

After my debt is paid off, the goal is to apply the percentage that has been going towards debt, towards investments. I think this leg of my journey is going to be way more fun!

Obviously, I am going to move out of my parent's house, and maybe not so obviously, add skiing back into my life. So the 70% might become 50-60%, but I have some creative things on the horizon in regards to house hacking so I'm still aiming high.

I do have a little head-start as I've been contributing a measly 2% to my employer-sponsored simple IRA with Vanguard and have a fully funded emergency fund.  I'm going to be maxing out my IRA among other vehicles and plan to chronicle it all here.

Plus for the first time ever, I'm excited about turning 50 (in five years) as my contribution limits go up on IRAs and Roth IRAs. Paige from episode 041 opened my eyes to this lovely benefit of getting older.

I'm still studying all the possible hacks and levers to pull in pursuit of financial independence and will share what works for me and what doesn't. After listening to episode 023 with ESI, I realized career hacking might be my biggest FIRE power right now. ESI from ESI Money was kind enough to give me some advice specific to my situation, so stay tuned for an article on that.

I'm incredibly grateful to all of the people who have helped me on my journey, in particular, my colleague Carson who turned me onto ChooseFI. I'm so impressed with the people in this community and learn from you all every day. I would be remiss if I didn't give a shout out to Jonathan and Brad, you guys are truly awesome at what you do and your generosity to this community is amazing. Thanks for giving me a place to tell my story.

If you want more from Ms. Fiology check out her site here.

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35 thoughts on “How Hitting Rock Bottom Put Me On The Path To Financial Independence”

  1. Wow, incredible story – thanks for sharing! So glad to hear how much you’ve turned your life around.

    I can only imagine how hard it would be to move back in with your parents, but housing is likely the biggest expense in anyone’s life. Cutting that out (or even just back some) can be a great way to get ahead financially. Nice job!

    Thanks again for sharing!

    — Jim

  2. Great first article! Welcome to the community and thank you for sharing your story.
    Really loved this line: “This stuff is not just for the privileged or wealthy, it’s for the disciplined”.
    Discipline = Freedom 🙂

  3. Love your story, thanks for sharing. I also love to ski, but am a racing coach now. It’s a great side hustle, I get a seasons pass and can’t remember the last time I paid for a lift ticket. It’s also my way of giving back to the sport.

    • What a great idea! My first limiting thought was I’m not good enough to be a racing coach or ski instructor…but if I wanted to I could be! Thanks for the idea.

  4. Your commitment and resourcefulness in choosing a better life is truly inspiring. Thanks so much for sharing your story. I look forward to hearing about your journey forward!

  5. Just wanted to say thank you so much for sharing your story. I also have always felt the need to be perfect so thus a failure. I’ve also had to overcome alcohol problems (sober since 2012) due to that being the only time I’ve felt normal. Sadly my wife is currently living in an apartment as she says that I’m no fun anymore. I’m currently living through a life change that is forced due to her decision to leave and am trying to understand how to move forward.

    • Scott, your comment really hit me. That perfectionism thing is nuts and the irony is that it ultimately drives us to failure. Nice work on your sobriety. I remember the first time I danced when I was sober, it felt so weird. At first, many things felt weird sober, but it is now the new norm for me and, to be honest, way better and more real. I’m so sorry to hear about your marriage on the rocks. I’m struggling with how to write my advice to you, but I say keep on keeping on and focus on cleaning up your side of the street. Making amends has a great way of healing relationships but I’ve found in all the amends I’ve made, I cannot expect the outcome. Making amends changed me, though.

      • Thank you sooo much! I needed this! Currently working on cleaning up my financial wreckage and gaining control, with the long term goal of becoming financially independent as well! Very inspiring!

  6. This is such a real blog post-something we don’t usually get to read. It’s so inspiring that even though you knowingly and unknown made many mistakes, you were still able to turn it around. We’ve all made the mistakes, and we all have the ability to change! Thank you for sharing!

  7. Recognizing perfect love was a gift you received, blogging about your journey is a gift your giving.
    Looking forward to sharing your achievements in the next few months.

  8. I appreciate your rawness in detailing you story Mrs.FI-ology! It is not an easy thing to do, but it truly is an inspiration. So many people dwell on their mistakes and ultimately end up stuck in life, but I am a big proponent of embracing your mistakes. It is these mistakes that have shaped you into the person you are today. Learn from them and let them push you forward in achieving your dreams. Can’t wait to hear more!

  9. I love your story and am so glad you’re sharing it here. I can totally appreciate the paths and how in a lot of ways you chose the harder path (choosing the get high this one last time is soo much easier). Yet, the harder path is so much more fulfilling and has less down sides. 😉 Looking forward to reading more!

    • Thanks for that. I was just telling someone that the other day – pretty much most of the awesome things in my life have come from choosing the path less traveled. It was harder work, but totally worth it!

    • Agreed! It is so easy to keep all this stuff inside until it isn’t. I get better when I share and I am so glad it impacts others. Thank you.

  10. So inspiring! I’m always happy to come across similar stories of finding FI later in life and the ways they are applying it to their situations. It helps keep me motivated. Looking forward to hearing from you often!

    • Thank you. I look forward to sharing more. We can motivate one another! I am finding there are some serious advantages to getting older.

  11. That was an amazing story of inspirational hope for those of us just starting the journey! Thank you for being so open and honest. I can’t wait for what’s to come.

  12. Wow! What an amazing story. I’m so impressed that you were able to see through some of the sub-optimal advice that Dave Ramsey sells while still following the pieces you agreed with. I think the episode of Choose FI that talks about the agreements and disagreements with DR is one of the ones that made me a lifer. I can’t wait to continue to read about your FI journey. Not everybody gets it right from the beginning but you clearly seem to be on a winning path today.

    • Thanks Jason! That is quite a compliment, seriously. First off, I have to give DR props as he gave me my first strategy when I had none. The first reason I strayed from DR’s advice was due to the foreclosure. I knew my credit took a huge slam and having a big emergency fund brought me peace of mind that I was not willing to part with. The foreclosure is also why I kept some credit cards open and so I just learned to use them within my budget. The funny thing about not giving up my ER match is that it is not even a match. I thought it was but turns out my boss gives 2% regardless – I think that was a good error on my part. I really, really wanted to do a debt free scream at the DR studio but knew I wasn’t qualified since I didn’t follow his plan 100%. However, once I met ChooseFI, I decided CampFI was going to be my debt free celebration!!

    • Thanks, Laura! I’m truly thrilled to be on this journey to FI and to be able to share it with y’all is like icing on the cake. Who says you can’t have your cake and eat it too.

  13. Hi Ms. FI-ology,

    I have looked for you online, typing in “Ms. FI-ology,” but haven’t been able to find anything under that name. Do you have a blog site?


    • Hey Lesley, thank you for wanting to follow me. That is the biggest compliment! This is my first experience with blogging and when I came up with the name Ms. FI-ology I did buy the domain name,

      However, I haven’t started to write there yet. I wanted to see how this goes first, but you may have inspired me 🙂

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